Missing Her

It’s been a month since my grandmother died…  I know it’s time for me to get back to life in its entirety, but I still don’t want to.

Handkerchief bottom view She died two days before her 80th birthday, and this was going to be her birthday present.  I gave it to her on her birthday anyway and she held it in her hand as I saw her for the very last time on this earth.  I know she would have loved the bling….  she was ALL about the bling!

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Here is my nanny with Jack 3 years ago.  She played baseball with him ALL afternoon! 

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She’s on the far left of this picture at the age of 15…  that’s when she married my papa.

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Here are the girl granddaughters in the kitchen (that holds SO many memories) creating her memorial flowers and pictures.

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Her memorial wreath that we made.

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She also LOVED parties with cake.  We celebrated her birthday with one of her favorite colors… HOT PINK. :)

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I know she’s at peace.  I know she’s happy again.  I know I will see her again. 

But, today I still miss her. 

I’m filled with regret for the times I wasn’t there.

And, my heart aches for her.